I think I'm a stubborn mule that doesn't like to admit she's wrong.
I was tight. I was tight for a very long time. It was so long that I don't even remember when it started. The tightness kept getting worse and worse. I think the last straw was Monday morning. I threw up near violently in a cup on my way to work.
They say texting and driving is dangerous, what about vomiting and driving? I don't see any laws about that. Here in NC, it's against the law to text and drive and to be distracted while driving. I wonder how I would have to explain myself to a police officer about being distracted because I was throwing up. Hmmm... Interesting thoughts.
Anyway, for a while I was having reflux at night. I couldn't sleep. I had to sleep sitting up and that was uncomfortable. Sometimes I would scoot down in the bed and I would end up throwing up again. Sometimes it would just pool in my mouth and I woke wake up and spit it out. Sometimes it would dribble out of my mouth. Other times (which was more often than the other two) I would somehow inhale it and wake up coughing. This was acid and bits of food that I was throwing up. Yuck.
Worse feeling ever.
I saw my lovely surgeon yesterday. He unfilled me. I asked for 1 cc out. Wow. That makes a difference. I can eat now. I can eat normally. I haven't gotten stuck today or yesterday. I haven't brought any food up today or yesterday.
There. I think I have found my problem.
I was too tight for too long.
I would eat things that were easy. Ice cream, cookies, cupcakes, etc. Sometimes those weren't even easy! It hurt to eat. I hated it. I started to hate my band, but it was me all along.
However, now that I can actually eat, I feel more like eating healthier. I went to the gym today, and it felt good!
Gosh. Can you say epiphany?!
Holy macaroni and cheese!
Lesson learned. A TIGHT BAND DOESN'T MEAN MORE WEIGHT LOSS.
I feel like crying now. On a side note, I got off the NuvaRing, my birth control. Ever since then I've wanted to cry and mate like a rabbit. I'm supposed to get the Mirana soon. I can't wait to get my normal self back.
Gosh, I just put a ton of words, thoughts, and emotions into one blog post.
I hope your minds haven't exploded yet. My apologizes if they have.
Good day all, good day!
I can see how being too tight would lead to the gain, I hope you feel better and continue to use the band as it should be, to help control your portion sides, although it is a real pity it can't help with our food choices :p
ReplyDeleteKeep blogging, I think it really does help us stay on track, something I too am working on.
I'm glad you finally realized you were too tight. That's no way to live.
ReplyDeleteI got off birth control at the end of January (my family is complete) and I've got to say I feel better than I have in YEARS. I didn't realize what those hormones were doing to me until I didn't have them anymore.
It sounds like you're ready to get back on track. And 2 posts in 2 days...you're starting a streak!