Random

I woke up around 4am, and I can't really get back to sleep. So I decided to surf the Internet, and I'm back on the Lap Band Talk forum. I can remember before being banded. The worries and the doubts for the pre-op stuff. I feel nervous thinking about it, but now I feel so awesome after being banded.

I feel like it's *finally* happening for me. I can't believe I've lost almost 60 pounds (I'm at 58 now). I will do a special post when I reach 60. Anyway, I can't believe I've lost 60 pounds. I feel special, lol. I feel pretty and normal. Yesterday I wore close fitting yoga pants to the gym, and I didn't look half bad! They made my butt look good. Well, to me they did. I feel smaller.

When I was over 300 pounds, I remember looking in this big wall mirror that they have at my work. I remember seeing a huge person. I remember looking at my huge shoulders. Like it looked like I had a football uniform's shoulder pads on. I'm glad I won't look like that again.

I'm not sure how other people see me. I wonder if they think I'm fat. I wonder if they say to themselves "Damn, she's fat." I so desperately want to tell people to not judge me because I'm losing weight and I won't look like this for very long. I don't know. I know I shouldn't worry about what others think.

Hmmm... this is so random. Especially since it's 5 o'clock in the morning when I'm usually sleeping when I don't have to work.

Lately, I have been running. Have I mentioned that? I'm not sure. I can usually do a mile in 15 minutes. If I'm feeling good, I can do it in 14 minutes. Lately when I try to run, I get a cramp in my right side. It's weird and painful.

I'm not sure what else to say. I guess I needed to vent a bit.

My cough is getting better. It was actually the reason why I woke up at 4am. My pink eye is responding very well the the drops. This leads me to believe that my pink eye is bacterial and not viral.

I guess that's it for now. I hope all is well and healthy!